before the quest

Before as you ripped at my clothes,
gnawed at my breasts
examining my profile
a mandatory test

in me I was a goddess
ruler, above the divine
My solace gone, lying beside your bed


my body the ultimate quest
more than once- your thirst never quenched
Arching in praise, trembling as I called your name
my moans a sector for the game


a chore, mundane
start to finish
Over and over again

Before youre gone

The pain is dripping on the floor
occupied eyes see no more
Time has created the thickness you endured
fields of grey
monotonous beats and blurred vision of your days
questions have run out and answers wish to be told.

Torture of your unknown bleeds from within.
Unseen, unnoticed, unforgivable.
solutions lie within the hushed breath which you supply
no words can be echoed- there is no release.

The sounds you so long to hear have escaped along with her will
the silence has penetrated too far
the murderous suicide is recorded and captured.
Salted tears add a bitter flavour to your departure
Slowly, hushed and still.
Your polluted dwelling felt much like this,
the new darkness is welcomed, let this stillness spill itself around you
open your eyes and breathe.
You are the silence.
And now you are gone